that is the question! I'm trying to decide whether I should keep this thing going. I think everyone who reads it is on Facebook and I find myself going there more often. But I don't want to share as much personal information on Facebook. And you know I can get pretty personal!
It's been three years since I started this blog and I really appreciate anyone who has taken the time to read about our little life. I've enjoyed sharing stories and pictures (still do), but maybe it's time for something new? I could definitely use some input on this. Maybe I'm just in a funk.
One night earlier this week I was sound asleep (had been working the overnight shift) when Mason came running into my room: "Mom, there's an agent at the door." What the heck? Half comatose, I got up and stumbled to the door. When I opened it there was, in fact, a man standing on the other side. The cable man. Mason thought because he was wearing a blue shirt and had a clipboard - he must have been an agent.
Anyone who knows me, knows I'm a Christian. That's the way it should be. I'm proud of it. But for the most part I keep my personal relationship with God .. private. Mainly because as a teenager I was turned off by the people who came to church on Sundays and then acted very un-Christianlike the other six days of the week. I've never wanted to be perceived as a hypocrite, so I've kept my relationship with God pretty private. (I don't think I'm a jerk or anything, but I'm certainly not perfect).
Today though I feel compelled to talk about my faith - and how it is stronger than ever because of my cousin Micah. Her death last week was, of course, a shock to everyone. I know God doesn't test us, but I think it's okay to have questions. We all do. But the way her immediate family (her dad, mom, brother and grandparents) has handled this tragedy has made me forget about those questions and fully realize that God is in control.
They have turned everything over to Him. They really have. Casey said he can't imagine anyone who isn't a Christian being able to survive this. Some people talk the talk, but they're really walking the walk. It's inspirational. An example of how we should all live - putting every bit of faith in Him. Knowing Micah is in a better place. They are even praying for her killer. My dad and I were talking last night about how blown away we are by this family and how we can all learn from them. The next time I'm faced with adversity I will try and think of the Rines. And how they have turned it all over to God. Their journey wil no doubt be a difficult one as they mourn the loss of their precious daughter, but with prayer they will be carried through. I just know it. And I thank them for allowing me to grow stronger on my own path ...
Emma's been talking about her 'diarrhea' a lot lately. Last night Chris finally figured out what she's been referring to: her diary.
We're now calling it a journal :)